Today is my late brother, Ayang's 24th birthday. Well, he would have been 24 today, but Allah loves him more and he's no longer with us.
This morning, I went to see Ewin, his girlfriend, to give her something that I bought from NekkRock. She looks very pretty and tall. When I was about to go, she mentioned that today's Ayang's birthday which made me real happy and sad at the same time. Sad because he's not with us today but happy that someone else remembers him, still. I thought I was the only one. Ewin was the stronger between us because she didn't cry, I did...sigh.
Anyway, on the way to KL, I told the kids that today's Ayang's birthday. Hadi said, 'But how are we going to celebrate? The birthday boy's not here!', such honest innocence. I answered that 'Well, we do not celebrate but it's enough for us to remember him'. I was overcome with sadness and when Amir asked why I was crying, Aliah told him that, 'Mak just misses her brother'. Very aptly put...sigh
Yes, I greatly miss him. And I choose to remember him by sedekah some of his insurance money to charity. I want to give some to a project by OOD, and some I already gave to the Rumah Kasih Sayang in BTP (I dropped by on the way back home just now). I also choose to remember him by going to his best friend's wedding in Batu Kurau on Saturday (the journey starts tomorrow morning, insyaallah).
Ayang, semoga rohmu digolongkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman, bersama mak dan ayah, insyaallah. Amin. Alfatihah... I'll always love you...